As a follow up to the last blog post, I had another wonderful learning experience that I figured you would benefit from as well. (Obviously, otherwise I wouldn’t be taking up your time!)
In the last post I was talking about how it’s easy to be afraid to get in touch with your Higher Self because you never know what she’s going to say. You don’t know where she might lead you. But that it’s important to realize that she isn’t here to give you a ration of shit. She isn’t here to judge or lay a guilt trip on you. So we don’t have to shut her out in order to save ourselves from that.
Today I experienced the perfect example of this. My book mentor (and overall heroine) Angela Lauria shared a Kickstarter campaign for one of her authors, a 33 year old living with Stage 4 cancer named Katie. Katie is amazing person who wants to change the world, and I really crumbled reading her story.
Thoughts started hitting me in rapid succession, and none of them were good.
“THIS is someone who is making a difference in the world!” (implying that I’m not good enough)
“She’s only 3 years older than me! That could be me!” (insert brain descending into horrible spiral of ‘what-ifs’)
“Life is so short and precious! You have wasted HOW much time?” (implying the lessons thus far are worthless)
“How selfish is it that you’re squandering your time when you should be getting your work out there to help people? You’re a terrible, useless person.”
Once I got to this point, I was simultaneously freaking out and thinking “Whoa, whoa, what the fuck is this shit?”
I took a big step back and connected to something Higher than me, and immediately heard my Higher Self say, “How is any of that helping you?” It’s not. “How is that helping anyone else?” It isn’t.
“How can you transmute this and turn it into action that WILL help?”
And off my brain went, in a much more positive direction, leaving the negative self-defeating thoughts behind as I thought up a new offer I could put together that would not only allow me to pay my bills, but would allow me to donate to Katie’s Kickstarter!
It is very important that we never mistake the strange, backwards actions of the Ego for our Higher Selves. Our Higher Self has no qualms about lighting a fire under our asses, but she’s never going to berate or belittle us, because that’s divergent to her mission, which is to lift us UP and show us how amazing we are!
Have you had an experience like this? Have you been getting confused on what is Ego and what is your Higher Self? If you want to learn more about this, you are welcome to jump into the new program I’m holding in order to further Katie’s campaign! It’s an intensive group coaching where we come together on Zoom to discuss how to wrangle the Inner Storm and integrate your Higher Self – if you want to claim your spot now (space is limited to 10, max) pay at paypal.me/lindseyrainwater/47 and I’ll send you the details.
Half of what I make from this offer will go to Katie’s campaign. You can learn more about it by going to https://www.kickstarter.com/projects/1321331727/the-courage-club-a-radical-guide-to-living-beyond Please consider sharing my offer and/or her campaign with others as well!